It’s been an “interesting” day.
I’ll start with the big lesson that today represents for me. It’s time to get naked. It’s time to step into as much authenticity as we dare. Any walls, any illusion of separation we create between ourselves and others, or between ourselves and our Selves, are going to smack us upside the head. Hard. My suspicion is that we’ll get smacked right in the wallet, too.
I’ll tell you what’s been going on for me: I reached my big, big, big goal of creating over 30K of revenue in a single month back in November. Having reached that goal, I thought I’d take December to regroup. I’m still regrouping.
The money’s been fine … I’m still happily turning in five-figure months. Today is the third of the month and my bills are already basically covered. What’s been missing is direction and passion. To be honest, for the last few months I’ve found myself in this alarming “people SUCK” territory that is definitely out of alignment with my deep desire to serve others. The conflict between the two has been pretty painful.
Last weekend, I had the huge privilege of speaking at “Ignite Your Spark,” a women’s empowerment conference in Utah. Even better, the keynote was the amazing Lisa Nichols. All in all, it was a great event full of excited people, and mingling with the other speakers and the attendees was wonderful. Being in this energized atmosphere, I got my own spark back! Hah! The event lived up to its name.
I realized why I’d been depressed: I’d been hanging out with some rather depressing people!!! And by depressing, I don’t mean sad or negative. I mean unable or unwilling or too stuck in fear to take action on their own behalf.
The reality for all of us helping or healing professionals remains that, no matter how we serve, we can’t take action on behalf of others. In the end, we all have to do for ourselves. I’ll be honest – one of my greatest strengths is taking action. Even when I’m scared (which is often! even though no-one ever believes me) or out of my comfort zone (like right now) or uncertain – I still take action. This is the number one reason why I’ve created a successful business. And unfortunately, no matter how much information I can give, no matter how much insight I can offer, no matter how much energy work, coaching, and business know-how I share … that is ONE gift I just can’t pass along. Because in the end, all of us have to act on our own behalf. No-one can do it for us.
So that’s been depressing. I’ve had a lot of doubt about how much good I can really do in the lives of others. I know, I know … I “should” detach from the outcome of my work, bla bla bla. Yeah, I teach all that. But when you seriously start doubting the ability of people to get off the tracks when the train is fast approaching … well, it’s tough. Because all the spiritual teachings in the world can’t help THAT situation get any better.
Being at an event where people cared enough to SHOW UP was great. Being with speakers who are DOING IT was wonderful. Watching Lisa Nichols, who is unafraid to cry in front of her audience, was awesome.
Back to the whole “getting naked” thing.
I left Utah re-energized and determined to connect with excited people who are IN ACTION in pursuit of the life they want to create. Basically, I found my love for people again. Yippee!
Only to get slapped upside the head today with ALL the stuff people bring into our lives: Love, support, disappointment, hurt, annoyance, hope, success, fear, pain, obligation, responsibility … all the wonderful energies and all the crap that comes when we huddle up and ENGAGE with each other. I feel like a wet paper towel.
I know what this is (yes, you students in my Money Manifesting Mastery program know, too!). I did one heck of a manifesting process last night and here’s the Universe, saying: “Really? Are you sure? Because all this comes with that particular territory …” I love how my rate of manifestation is about twelve hours. Crazy.
Greater authenticity and connection to our Selves also means being willing to connect in deeper and more authentic ways with each other. Our outer relationships mirror our relationship with ourselves. Do we dare be who we truly are, at every level of our existence, openly, brazenly, with no walls up? Even if being willing to connect – inwardly and outwardly – stirs up a lot of poop?
I think it’s the next phase of our evolution. It’s time to ENGAGE – with ourselves, with others.
Sooo … in the interest of engagement, let’s do some strategy sessions for free! Seriously – if you’re ready to get up close and person with WHY money might not be flowing for you, and you’re willing to DO something about it – then I want to help. So click here to apply. And what I get out of this is some market research – I want to know where you folks are at with your money and your purpose.
To authenticity in abundance,
Andrea